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[26 Aug 2003|06:07pm] |
This journal is dead you assholes. Add me under my new name - cyanidekissx
good bye.
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[16 Jun 2003|08:57am] |
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[09 Jun 2003|08:12am] |
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thursday was bad. I had written this whole big thing about thurssday but it got erased and now i'm :(. but yeah so anyway friday was bonfire fest. that was fun cause i got to hang out with Russ. I also hung out with Michelle and Kathleen and Tawny which was awesome because they are cool people times 10000000. but yeah so after the show russ, me, jocelyn and darrin all went to the diner and ate some dinner there. The on saturday i had a soccer game out in the rain and i got soaking wet. but it was all good. the other team had a direct penality kick against me in goal and the other team was all like to their kicker "you're going to get it in on her, you're going to get it" and i was just sitting there cracking up because i've only missed one penalty kick in my life so i wasn't expecting having her get it in. and she didnt hahaha. so after that russ came over for a while. i was alittle angry because he left after only being over for alittle while. but yeah so at 10:28 i called him and we talked then for hours and i fell asleep on the phone with him and then we hung up and then i went to bed. On sunday i didnt go to church because i just didnt want to because i was tired. so after that i woke up and got in the shower to get ready for my sports' banquet. i went to that with ben and then sat there and ate. and then i went up and got my award and then i didnt want to be there so my friend Ashley took me home. I was home alone so i was on the verge of calling Russ to have him over when my dad walked in the door. i was like NOOOO! *tear* so then for the rest of the day i worked on my english project and talked to russ and such. Well, i was online taking to my friend Russ Lyman and we were talking for a while and then his bassist in his band comes on and is like why are you going out with Russ? and i was like because i want to. and he's like you're gay and i go thank you... seriously, i dont have a problem with you at all but if you have such a problem with me why are you even bothering with me? and he goes i hate you. i'm going to kill you. hahah oh man, that was sooo hilarious. i really dont care if he hits me or attempts to. i'd accually find it humoring. hahah but yeah, so the weekend was decient. there's a show this friday. A Chase Worthwhile and Tweak Nine are playing together. Sarah's coming down this weekend. I'm so happy! I havnt seen her in a few months and i miss her! but yeah, so now i'm in math class and such. Kayly's looking at my journal and it's fun. but yeah, i guess maybe i'll get into thursday later or something. I dont know, i just dont hahaha
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[06 Jun 2003|08:08am] |
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What would you say
if the sky was always grey?
What would you do
if it suddenly turned blue?
what would you say
if nothing went your way?
Roll the dice
Make a twinkle in your eye
Chance it all
Will the sky turn blue by fall
What would you say
if nothing went your way?
Now you're gone
And the rainbow's on my lawn
So take control
of everyone you know
You signed your name
but the letters start to fade
what would you say
if nothing went your way?
Yes it's true
that i wrote this song for you
Now you see
all you are is a memory
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[05 Jun 2003|05:17pm] |
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s k 1 t z o dTm: HIIIIIIIIIi
HeyJim182: hi there
s k 1 t z o dTm: I can come see you play!!!!!
HeyJim182: yay!
s k 1 t z o dTm: are you angry at Kayly or something?
HeyJim182: no why?
s k 1 t z o dTm: cause she was all like 'cam isnt talking to me much anymore and i dont know why'
s k 1 t z o dTm: and i was like aw :-(
HeyJim182: i have been really busy
s k 1 t z o dTm: oooooo okay
HeyJim182: i cant be angry at thee pickle
s k 1 t z o dTm: yay
See Kayly, he's not mad at you! <3
today was icky till after school but i dont want to get into it yet
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| haha funny stuff |
[03 Jun 2003|12:38pm] |
If a police officer in Coeur d'Alene, Idaho, suspects a couple is having sex inside a vehicle they must honk their horn three times, and wait two minutes before being allowed to approach the scene.
Women must address bachelors as master instead of mister, according to an Illinois state law.
A law in Oblong, Illinois makes it a crime to make love while fishing or hunting on your wedding day.
A law in Fairbanks, Alaska, does not allow moose to have sex on city streets.
In Ventura County, California, cats and dogs are not allowed to have sex without a permit.
Clinton, Oklahoma, has a law against masturbating while watching two people having sex in a car.
In Willowdale, Oregon, no man may curse while having sex with his wife.
In Harrisburg, Pennsylvania it is illegal to have sex with a truck driver inside a toll booth.
Hotels in Sioux Falls, South Dakota, are required by law to furnish their rooms with twin beds only. There should be a minimum of two feet between the beds, and it is illegal for a couple to make love on the floor between the beds.
In Kingsville, Texas, there is a law against two pigs having sex on the city's airport property.
A Tremonton, Utah law states that no woman is allowed to have sex with a man while riding in an ambulance. In addition to normal charges, the woman's name will be published in the local newspaper. The man does not receive any punishment.
No woman may go in public without wearing a corset in Norfolk, Virginia.
In the state of Washington there is a law against having sex with a virgin under any circumstances. (including the wedding night)
The only acceptable sexual position in Washington D.C. is the missionary-style position. Any other sexual position is considered illegal.
In Florida it is illegal for single, divorced, or widowed women to parachute on Sunday afternoons.
In Ames Iowa a husband may not take more than three gulps of beer while lying in bed with his wife.
A law in Alexandria, Minnesota makes it illegal for a husband to make love to his wife if his breath smells like garlic, onions, or sardines.
In Bozeman, Montana, you can't perform any sexual acts in the front yard of any home, after sundown, and if you are nude.
A Helena, Montana law states that a woman cannot dance on a saloon table unless her clothing weights more than three pounds, two ounces.
Hotel owners in Hastings, Nebraska are required by law to provide a clean, white cotton nightshirt to each guest. According to the law, no couple may have sex unless they are wearing the nightshirts.
Any couple making out inside a vehicle, and accidentally sounding the horn during their lustful act, may be taken to jail according to a Liberty Corner, New Jersey law.
During lunch breaks in Carlsbad, New Mexico, no couple should engage in a sexual act while parked in their vehicle, unless their car has curtains.
In Nevada sex without a condom is considered illegal.
In Cleveland, Ohio women are not allowed to wear patent-leather shoes.
In Connorsville, Wisconsin no man shall shoot of a gun while his female partner is having a sexual orgasm.
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[03 Jun 2003|07:21am] |
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[02 Jun 2003|12:35pm] |
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ugh, people anger me. I'm sorry that I didn't want to stay at a place that I didn't feel comfortable at. I'm sorry 9that i wanted to hang out with my boyfriend where I was being made fun of. If you have such a problem with me why do you even bother. You and her made me so angry yesterday by saying to break up with Russ. you know what, thats not going to happen any time soon. Deffinaty not. Why dont you go out with her? have fun, get laid. But when she hurts you, dont come back to me. Dont talk to me about her, I dont want to hear it. Just leave me alone, and as in your words "don't look back"
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[02 Jun 2003|07:55am] |
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wow being grounded sucks...
Um so on friday i was all sad durring school because i had to miss the show at oddfellows and i really wanted to go cause Nick's band was playing and Mike Fox was going to be there. But school was also cool because i made a new friend, this girl Michelle. She's awesome! but so anyway back to Mike Fox. I want to meet this kid really badly because he and I talk online and all and I have no idea who he is and it's like AHH! but yeah so anyway, I thought Russ was going to forget to pick me up but he didnt forget so i was :D. We went and drove around for awhile, we were on our way to pick up Jocelyn when Russ's cousin called him up and told him to come back to his place so we did. Darrin and I stole his car and went and drove around for a bit and then drove back to Russ. We then went and picked up my little sister from school which she loved so she covered for me for the night. So after we dropped Rachel off we went on the highway to go pick Jocelyn up. We went in the wrong direction so that made Russ go fast and drive recklessly so I got really freaked out and curled up into a ball till we got to Jocelyn's. Then we took her back to my house where Darrin and Russ fell asleep as me and Jocelyn ate everything we could find in my house. Then my mommy came home and gave me and jocelyn more food. Then we went downstairs and joined our boyfriends. A little while later my mommy came downstairs and asked the boys if they wanted to go up to this benifet dinner at Orchard Hills and they said they would so we rounded up some acoustic geetars and went there and played them and then after that we went back to my house and like passed out till 11 and then they all went home and i went to sleep.
On saturday i woke up at about 10, took a shower, got dressed, and made my daddy go take me to the bank so i could cash my paychecks. So I did that and then got ready for my reffing game. I went there and Bob was there so I did the game and then my mom invited Bob over so he came over and i went and changed out of my uniform and then we went out to go shopping. I got some clothes. Then I came home, called Russ, and he came over. He left really quickly though cause Bob was over and Russ doesnt like him. So then after that Bob went home and i went to sleep.
Yesterday I woke up and went to church. I was talking to Bob when Kevin comes up to me and was like "I was at the movies with emily last night" and i was like "oh thats nice, why do I care?" and he walked away. So then i went downstairs and called Emily and said "how was the movie last night?" and she was like "how did you know?" and so i told her that Kevin told me and then me being me, invited her to church because my friends were all singing in choir so i didnt want to sit alone. as i was waiting for her i talked to jeremy who made me feel a little better. So after that emily came for like the last five seconds of church which we talked though cause i havnt talked to her in like over a month. So after church we were suppost to be hanging out with Russ but that didnt happen so Emily, Bob, Kevin, and I all went out to eat. all durring lunch kevin was making rude comments to me and i was just so depressed because i really dont want to hate him. and bob and emily were like "whats wrong?" a billion times. and they all thought it was russ that was pissing me off because he didnt come and hang out with me. they wouldnt believe me how many times i said that it wasnt him pissing me off. So after that we all went to Bob's where Emily like walked around naked and i was like omg thanks lets do this right infront of two people i used to/have kinda feelings for (not in that feelings way, thank you i have Russ.) and that just made me so angry. so then Russ called and wanted to hang out with me so i made kevin drive me home and then they all left and Russ came over and we played some video games and then went to sleep and then he left so i was sad. then i went to go pick Bob and emily (who had just met bob today and she was alone with him at his house) for PF and she came out wearing his clothes with no bra on what so ever. so i refused to talk to them the whole night and then i went home and studied for the night for my test today and then went to sleep.
So today i was in the lunchroom eating my breakfast and i had ransid milk and i think i'm going to die cause i feel all sick now and i want to go home :(.
tomorrow Russ gets his eyebrow pierced! :)
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[30 May 2003|08:02am] |
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Hey hey hey, um well I'm in Math class again and we have a sub so its :p um... yeah, russ came over for like .30 seconds yesterday but it was nice to see him. He's suppost to be picking me up today from school and i think my mom is working today and that she's exceedingly busy and that means i guess Russ can stay over hella long so its like :D YAY! um... my tummy hurts, i dont know why, i'm in kinda a :( mood but i dont know why i am because that is just uberly not fun. I'm pretty tired too. I have a study hall 3rd period, maybe I'll sleep then today. I want my CD player :( but i forgot to grab it today so i have nothing to listen to all day so it sucks. um.. yeah, so i dont know what to write. I'm sad cause i cant go to Nick and Dave's show tonight :( *tear* but yeah anyway, school's allmost out and then i can go to shows all the time :D
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[28 May 2003|08:40am] |
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I think i'm in love...
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[27 May 2003|08:17am] |
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hey guys, I've been out of state for the weekend. cousin's weddding in DC. um... yeah. so russ came over yesterday and i was like yay! haha yeah. I'm going to make that kid love using a phone so :p. Lucky kid, he gets out of school in a couple of days. so well, i'm here in math class. oh yay. haha yeah steph is here. hehehehehe. um yeah. kayly is here somewhere but she's all emo and thats like :(. but yeah. ummmmm BLARGH. yes good day. no track pratice EVER AGAIN :D :D :D :D :D :D. haha yeah so later!
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| sucky ass song |
[23 May 2003|08:11am] |
My breath comes jagged,
Everything was going so swell,
But now everything is a mess.
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
Let this all slip away.
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
And let the blood drip all day.
I've gathered myself one too many times,
You've pushed me too far this time,
I'm sick of all the bullshit,
I want nothing to do with you.
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
Let this all slip away.
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
And let the blood drip all day.
"We know you don't care" is all i hear you say,
If you know me so damned well why am i going through this?
"We care about you"
If you cared why would you try to make me want to be missed?
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
Let this all slip away.
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
And let the blood drip all day.
My eyes got blurred,
My writing sluggish,
This is the last time i'll dissapoint you.
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
Let this all slip away.
Would you mind if i pulled the trigger?
And let the blood drip all day.
Would you mind?
Would you mind?
would you mind?
Would - you - mind?
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[23 May 2003|07:19am] |
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blah live sucks right now. I'm grounded for my progress report. dont my parents realize that it's not my report card, it's not my official grade? wow they're dumb. well, they've taken me off the computer, took away the phone, getting rid of the door to my room, if there is anything of mine somewhere were it's not suppost to be it gets thrown away. and blah blah blah blah lets kill amanda and so on and so forth. So right now i'm updating in school. Man, Russ' sweatshirt smells so much like him lol. Damn, i'm going to die without talking to him. Hopefully i can see him at my track meet at platt today after school. because i don't think he and i will be chilling any time soon. that sucks soooo much because i honestly think i could be really falling for him even though we've only officially been dating for a couple of days.
blah, my friend Bob is over here talking to me now so i'll write more later maybe...
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Name: Amanda
Nickname: Manlee, Skitzo, Penis
.AIM SCREENNAME: Sk1tzodtm
.Sex: girl
.Birthday: 2-15-88
.Height:5'5
.Hair color: blonde
.Is your hair long or short: medium length i guess
Eye Color: depends on the time
.City born in: Bridgeport, CT
.Location now: milford, CY
.Siblings: 1 sister
.Parents married/divorced: married
.Who makes you laugh the most?: idk
.Who knows the most about you?: Liz?
.WhO wAs Ur CrUsH iN.
.Kindergarten: this kid eric i think?
.1st Grade: Dave
.2nd Grade: Dave
.3rd Grade: Dan
.4th Grade: Dan
.5th Grade: Dan
.6th Grade: Dan, Josh
.7th Grade: woah there... i guess the biggest out of them all was Hughie
.8th Grade: Andrew
.9th grade: Kevin and Russ and bob
.10th grade: not there yet
.11th grade: same as above
.12th grade: same as above
.Boy/girlfriend status: Russ
.OtHeR sTuFF aBoUt U.
.Do you have a job: yeah
.What are you scared of: fish
.Who's your role model: i dont know...
.Most interesting thing you've done this summer: the past summer would be meeting ryan and surfing
.What store do you shop at the most: Pac Sun, Hot Topic, Good Will, Bob's
.Have you ever done any drugs: yeah
.Are you a ditz: hell yeah
.FaVoRiTeS.
.Day of the week: saturday
.Thing in your room: bed
.CD: anything with MSI
.Song(s): as of now - Hands down - Dashboard Confessional
.Animal: dog
.Ice Cream: cookie dough
.Drink: mountain dew code red
.Thing to do: hang out with friends and go to shows
.Movies of all time: WLB
.Hangout: mall, shows
.Favorite pizza topping: cheez
.Where do you see yourself in 10 years: married
.If you could live anywhere: FL
.Dream house: something far away from everyone else
.What age do you want to get married: early
.How many kids do you want: 3
.Girl's names: Tanya
.Boy's names: Julian and Kenneth
.HaVe U eVeR.
.Been in love?: yes
.Lied?: every day of my life
.Cheated on a test?: yes
.Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes
.Tied your shoes together?: yes
.Eaten something with a lot of fat?: when do i not?
.Had sex?: ...
.FeElInGs InSiDe.
.Worst feeling in the world: emptiness
.Best feeling in the world: happiness
.Do you get along with your parents?: no
.Are you ticklish?: yeah
.OpPoSiTe SeX.
.1st thing you notice about the opposite sex: eyes and smell
.Perfect "dream" date: just to be with a guy and to be happy being me
.Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?: Bob or Matt
.What do you look for in the opposite sex: someone i can actually talk to
.What does the opposite sex not know about you: some stuff
.NiGhTy NiTe.
.What do you wear to bed: nothing
.What's your bed time: whenever i want it to be
.Do you wish on stars : yeah
.Is there a TV in your room: no
.What's the last thing you do before you fall asleep: write
.How many schools have you been to: 5
.Are you passive or aggressive: passive
.Vanilla or chocolate: vanilla
.Would you rather be hot or cold: hot
.What is your curfew: 11
.fRiEnDs.
.Person you can trust the most: Sarah, Liz, Ryan
.What is the best quality of a friend: someone i dont have to give a flying fuck what im doin around them
.What friend do you have the most fun with: bob, jocelyn, Russ, Ryan, Liz
.RaNdOm.
.If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: i need to be more attractive
.Have you ever tried to kill yourself: yeah...
.Do you know anyone who SERIOUSLY wanted to kill themselves?: yeah
.Who do you really hate?: ...i dont hate him so much anymore
.Do you like jewelry?: yeah
.Do you wear a watch?: nope
.Do you believe in God?: eh
.Do you believe in love at first sight?: yes
.What are your favorite tv show(s)?: um... 8 simple rules
.What color tooth brush do you use?: white and blue
.Is the glass half empty or half full: depends
.Most dangerous thing you've ever done: woah, not going there
What does your name mean?: i dont know.
How old are you?: 15
How old are you mentally? too old
Describe yourself in 5 words: blah. you tell me
What are your worst qualities: lying
What are your best qualities: you tell me please
How long does it take you get ready: 30 - 60 minutes
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[21 May 2003|08:18pm] |
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Man, i'm so tired. I hate track. and i'm so pissed off at my parents but hey, whats new. my feet ache so badly cause of the damn arch raisers. i'm drenched along with my pants and such. it's so gay. well... russ and i are dating so yay for that lol you guys. but yeah, i have shit to do so later
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[20 May 2003|06:00pm] |
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man, whats wrong with me, i'm like super depressed and i dont know why. I should be happy, i hung out with russ today. I dont know, maybe it's the fact that i like him alot and we're still not going out yet. and that everyone asks me all the time what he and i have done and if we're dating yet. its annoying and i guess maybe thats what's bugging me. or the fact that someone from my past is talking to me and i have to admit i missed talking to him. i dont know, i'm just so confused right now. i dont know what to think and i dont want to lead myself on only to get hurt badly in the end. i really want everything to work out between me and Russ, i really do...
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[16 May 2003|08:15am] |
o1. My name:
o2. Where did we meet?:
o3. Take a stab at my middle name:
o4. How long have you known me?:
o5. When is the last time we saw each other?:
o6. Do I smoke?:
o7. Do I believe in God?:
o8. When you first saw me what was your impression?:
o9. My age:
o10. Birthday:
o11. Colour hair:
o12. Colour eyes:
o13. Do I have any brothers or sisters?:
o14. Have you ever had a crush on me?:
o15. Have you ever been jealous of me?:
o17. What's one of my fav. things to do indoors?:
o18. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to
you?:
o19. What's my favourite type of music?:
o20. What is the best feature about me?:
o21. Am I shy or outgoing?:
o22. Would you say I am funny "ha ha" or funny
(sarcastic)?:
o23. Am I a rebel or do I follow all the rules?:
o24. Would you consider me a friend, an acquaintance or
a good friend:
o25. Would you call me preppy, smutty, average, sporty,
punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else?:
o27. If there were one good nickname for me what would
it be?:
o28. Are my parents still together?:
o29. Have you ever seen me cry? If so wen and y did I
cry?:
o30. If I had broccoli in my teeth would you tell me?
o31. What would u give me out of 10 for personality?
o32. What would you give me out of 10 for looks?
o33. What annoys u most about me?
o34. Do u think I am funny?
o35. If you could do one thing to me what would it be?
o36. If you could go anywhere with me where would it
be?
o37. Do you trust me?
o38. Do you know anyone that fancies me?
o39. Do you know anyone that hates me?
o40. Do you love me?
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